Someone in My Womb

This is my third pregnancy...I thought it would be much easier
and I keep promising myself not to show off. But I just couldn't
help it. It's too difficult to hide what I'm feeling.

One funny thing about my pregnancy, is...I do not suffer
morning sickness but...evening sickness.

During morning time, I will do just fine...but after 1pm..I start
to feel so weak, lazy...don't want to do anything...vomitting...
arghhh....

And I get more emotional but lucky not bad temper as how I did
during my 1st pregnancy. But still, when I look at my husband's
face...i feel like he's thinking that I'm just overdoing...

And it makes me feel sucks!!

Last night we were suppose to visit his granma who just coming from
kampung, n staying at his Pak Long's house. Klang and Kl is not
so close like so many others thought ok....it will take you 1 hr
if there is no jam!

N terribly I'm so sick last nite. I just can't go...I did asked him to
go alone but he refused. But then, he started doing faces on me...
MasyaAllah....sedihnya hati. And I was vomitted 2 times last
nite and all he did is simply gives me a terribble look...like
he's saying 'Ala....buat2 je tu'

This morning I feel so sad....sbnrnya even until now. I just couldnt tell
anybody abt how i'm feeling because i dont want others to look bad
at the one I love most...but when I'm alone feeling all this crappy feelings,
I just can't contain this tears anymore...

Sakit sangat.

And to be honest, if it is all about me...I think 2 kids are enuff.
But because I love him too much...I'm willing to get preggy again
It's not that I dont love the one in my womb...of course I love him / her...
just like I love along n Yaya...

But..

I need support....

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